STARRAIN Friday, February 19, 2010
Mummy... You just hurt me deeply again at 11:05 PMFor so many years I had never failed to help out my mum with the dishes during lunar new year. Even daily housework. Except this year I wasn't in when relative visit my house so no one was helping her out. Blame it herself that she did not teach her precious son to help. Blame it her husband had always been a selfish loser. Today idiot mother say this to me: "Ah Yi" (my aunties) kids all very nice, will help out when Ah yi prepare food. @(*&#*@*@^*&^#*&^# (@*&(#&(*#&(*&#(*!&(*#&(*%**)(_ I AM SUPER SUPER ANGRY & FEEL LIKE KILLING MYSELF SO THAT SHE CAN REGRET!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Are you blind? Lost memories?? Don't remember that I'm the one who help out every year?? Forgotten that I'm the only one who mop/sweep floor? Clean shitty toilet?? Forgot forgot forgot??? I believe all my aunt have eyes to see. I even remember one of the aunt praised me for being helpful. I always help you because I LOVE YOU! I don't want you to be tired. But you forgot. DO YOU KNOW HOW I FEEL!!! I seriously cant take it anyone... Always angry with you and then because you are the one who treat it like nothing happen you will talk nicely like nothing happen. And I tell myself after all we are still family and I know you love me... So I will still love you.. Mum are still the best. Really, the incidents happens and really showed me Mother is still the best. BUT Mum, do you hate me or what? Why are you doing this to me? Purposely driving me crazy? Do you know that I'm very sensitive? I'm so hurt every time... I will kill myself if without Tian Quan with me. I feel that nobody love me. The thought of killing myself is always there every time you treat me 'weirdly' yes weirdly. WHY? YOU HATE ME IS IT!!!!!??????? If one day I commit suicide, reason:
I'm trying now to live more independent, I had already been, but now try to live like my life without you. Bye Tuesday, February 16, 2010
Little Love Left For Family - Mum at 1:46 PMLove for them had been reducing as I grew older and filled with more HATE. I know it is no good. I'm feeling the worst than anyone in the family - Father, Mother, Elder Brother (Ignorance gang) and sensitive little ME. Start with Mummy. Cause I always cant help but still love her no matter how bad things are. She is not a heartless mum who ill treat me, she still love me. She too wacky for a mum? That kind you will label it with "SHENG JING ZHI". She and the rest of them are rather IGNORANCE till the TIP! I took about 10 years to have a firm answer for myself. She is just the same as many - Fucking love my brother more because he is a HE. Oh well... Not that extreme, but then, I'm that sensitive. This blog will be the longest ever if I don't do it in bullet point, even if I do, I think it's still lllllonnng:
Labels: Family Bye Sunday, February 7, 2010
Farewell - Last pic at 1:26 PMLike this pic. Nice me, nice JY, nice umbrella ( I like umbrella that's red with wooden holder~ classic and sexy) except the background. Bye Thursday, February 4, 2010
Farewell~ Jian Yong at 8:06 PMIts so sad......... so sad....... JY - easygoing, old-fashion Mr Nice, down-to-earth. I cherish JY as a friend. A good friend that will give you old-fashion comfort when you are down. Always chat with me on msn during office hours because I'm so free most of the time. Now he is leaving tomorrow =( The feeling is like you have to part with your secondary school classmates and head to different institution. You know you will still contact each other, but it wont be as often as before. I wanna be his stylist more than anything lolx. Because he like to dress in his own style = No style. No offense la. I thought you were 32 when we first spoke. Hahaha... Very surprise you are actually the same age with me! JY, I'm very sorry about that period when I'm pissed off with you. Anyway I know you know the reason la. Then why kept asking why after that?? Don't JIA JIA sometimes ok... I don't like. =X Opps.. that time I thought Rotten Banana(the one in our engineering department) was a nice guy and I told him about it. So naive, so regret. I'm sorry. He is so Fucking JIAN lo. Act gentlemen and kept promoting himself to me all that all that.. I will blog about him soon!! Oh ya, hope you enjoy the KFC today! To end this... Here's some of the pics taken today: Bye |
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