 Friday, February 19, 2010
 Mummy... You just hurt me deeply again at 11:05 PMFor so many years I had never failed to help out my mum with the dishes during lunar new year. Even daily housework. Except this year I wasn't in when relative visit my house so no one was helping her out. Blame it herself that she did not teach her precious son to help. Blame it her husband had always been a selfish loser. Today idiot mother say this to me: "Ah Yi" (my aunties) kids all very nice, will help out when Ah yi prepare food. @(*&#*@*@^*&^#*&^# (@*&(#&(*#&(*&#(*!&(*#&(*%**)(_ I AM SUPER SUPER ANGRY & FEEL LIKE KILLING MYSELF SO THAT SHE CAN REGRET!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Are you blind? Lost memories?? Don't remember that I'm the one who help out every year?? Forgotten that I'm the only one who mop/sweep floor? Clean shitty toilet?? Forgot forgot forgot??? I believe all my aunt have eyes to see. I even remember one of the aunt praised me for being helpful. I always help you because I LOVE YOU! I don't want you to be tired. But you forgot. DO YOU KNOW HOW I FEEL!!! I seriously cant take it anyone... Always angry with you and then because you are the one who treat it like nothing happen you will talk nicely like nothing happen. And I tell myself after all we are still family and I know you love me... So I will still love you.. Mum are still the best. Really, the incidents happens and really showed me Mother is still the best. BUT Mum, do you hate me or what? Why are you doing this to me? Purposely driving me crazy? Do you know that I'm very sensitive? I'm so hurt every time... I will kill myself if without Tian Quan with me. I feel that nobody love me. The thought of killing myself is always there every time you treat me 'weirdly' yes weirdly. WHY? YOU HATE ME IS IT!!!!!??????? If one day I commit suicide, reason:
I'm trying now to live more independent, I had already been, but now try to live like my life without you. Bye |
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